Monthly Archives: June 2010

Whew… let me regroup Sean Garrett’s (She Geeked)

Hey people… I’ve been doing the “make it happen” shuffle for a couple of weeks, maybe months now. The last couple of weeks have definitely went into overload, both mentally and physically. I’ve needed to come up for air. Those that follow me on some of the networking websites may have noticed that I’ve been quieter than normal – no early morning lyrics via twitter, not as much silliness on fb. Some of that absence has been because I’ve just being busy, some not. I’ve now turned to a more reflective state.

I’ve got my deck of cards… all 52 of them are still intact. A couple of corners are bent, but nothing major. I like to do the riffle bridge… just check it out.

Haha ha… yes, those are my riffle bridge skills and *eh-hem* that’s me on the couch. The riffle bridge keeps the cards from becoming permanently arched in one direction from repeated shuffling. In life you can get stuck in busy work, doing the same stuff over and over and your view can become warped. Or you can be on the grind so hard that you don’t realize that your shuffling along face down just like you would shuffle a deck of cards. But, for those that know how to riffle bridge (I’m smiling now, like a 8 year old kid), you know what it feels like when the air pushes through the deck as the bridge disappears. Yeah, I’m goofy, but I remember when I first learned how to do this and it was too cool. :-P

Anyway… I’ve got my deck and I’m reshuffling them, doing that “riffle bridge” and the air feels good in my fingers. When I’m done they will lie flat and straight and I will continue on with my pursuit of purpose – this pursuit that will not end until He calls me home. :)

Love yall – ya girl from Oklahoma

Are you scared?

Most are too scared to reveal what they really want for fear of speaking too soon or saying the wrong thing and losing the “possibility” of what the relationship (business or personal) could bring to their life. The key is… if you have faith you know God is. Be yourself – let the God in you shine through. Allow the power of He that is within you move through all of your relationships. He is your protection, not your fear or the manipulative positioning you attempt to use to create control over your life. ~ ptincmoments

I’m single by choice.

I’m single by choice and lately, I’ve been in deep thought and discussion with God over this place that I’m in. Through family, friends and my own experiences, I feel like I’ve been attending the University of Relationships, except I’m like the little kid in the 2nd grade that thinks they know the answer (you see me… I’m raisin my hand higher than everyone else in class, waiting to get picked). Unfortunately, I’m also the teacher and I realize that will never know all the answers.

I can say, it feels so good to love the way you want to receive love. I realize now with great frustration that loving someone the way that I want to be loved makes neither one of us truly happy. And I would be a fool to think that I’m going to meet that person who grew up with the same experiences as I, who can love me as I would love me, which is why I must first love myself. In all relationships, we are supposed to love as God loves. Love is God’s gift. He gives it to us with choice and grace. He tells us what he wants and leaves us with the choice to love him in return. He loves us with grace, without the expectation of perfect reciprocation. I can only smile now, because I know there will be a day when I can tell a man what I want and be secure enough in myself to allow him to choose to reciprocate in his imperfect way without the relationship ending. Until then, I’ll strive to follow His lead.