Let’s start with some randomness… because we need to catch up a little.
First off, I didn’t make it to the movies to see myself on the big screen, but I will make it this weekend. #PromiseToSelf
I did make it to a fun photoshoot on Sunday with artist Jake Troth. The styling of the shoot was retro (60′s – 70′s) and I had on a sheer white bodysuit with a rounded butterfly collar, palazzo slacks and big hair. I spent several hours on set with Jake, other great models and the production staff, everyone seemed like cool people. (And I liked his music) Cool people and great music…?!?!! #ThatsAlwaysNice
… and yes, I know you can’t see the whole outfit from this image, but you know I will share more later. Now the hair…? it got even bigger by the time I made it to class on Monday. Here’s the footage from acting class. My “Simple Smiles” attitude carried over into class and I enjoyed the learning experience. Monday was a good day. Nothing more, nothing less. 
Now. Why this title? Walking Anomaly…
Well, I was told again this week that I’m a walking anomaly. Seems people don’t know what to do with me… smh. Different day, different context, but same story. I’m definitely used to it, but it’s so limiting. Truly, I think everyone wants to be seen for their individuality. But in my case, I guess I’m too far “out the box” for the norm, yet again. People have been trying to figure out what to do with me since as early as I can remember. Can someone just cut me a check for this innate individuality that seems to weigh me down? If I’m going to carry everyone’s baggage I might as well get paid for my services. I could use the break. #Seriously
I can’t entirely claim victim though. I play with contradictions. It makes for interesting “people watching”. I’m the quiet chick that can suck the air out of a room without taking a breath and then watch what ensues. I revealed a little about this in “They Call It Beasting“. I think people are drawn to contradictions. It pulls people in and makes them look to figure things out. And I want people to figure me out. I just don’t want people to box me in. I guess attention and labeling go hand-in-hand. 
Consider me a teenager… I want to be an adult, but only when I want to be adult-like. Lol.
In my life experience, I tried for too long to fit in and when that didn’t pan out, I worked at being invisible (yes, that pendulum I’m always talking about). Now that I’m settling in the middle of the pendulum’s swing from left to right, I’m a walking anomaly… !?!! Can I get a break? Oh! Right, I already asked for that. *sigh* I’ve written about those who strive to be different before, because to an extent I’m like… “Why create this environment for yourself?“
Even in all that I’ve said… I see myself as no different than anyone else. The thread that binds us is common. I want to be me, no holds barred. And I know that God will move those people/obstacles out of the way. As my faith grows, He will place the correct people/foundation in my path. What will I be then… a running anomaly? Yeah, so that was a silly Melanie moment, but hey… better silly and smiling, than serious and sad.
What labels do people give you? Which ones do you like or dislike? Why do you like or dislike them? Do you have any like this one… that’s like a double-edged sword?
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My family always tells me i’m a lot older in my head than I am in real life. Old man was probably my first nickname that my grandmother gave me. I mean even when I have my youthful moments, when I stop and think, I get it. I’m also super absorbent. My mother thinks it has to do with having big eyes and not afraid to stare at people. (I don’t stare anymore.) I can sit in a room and soak up everything from people and the mood in the air, or just look at a person and download their entire story. I think the biggest downside is that people can usually tell, they just get this feeling that the way i’m looking at them makes them vulnerable.
I guess that makes me different. It’s a label that people have given me. Both of them can be good and bad. I think my ability to be absorbent helps me to be a great listener and to have a great memory. It’s bad because I can judge character very well and if I think you’re a bad person i’ll never change my mind.
Dr Jay is like an insightful old soul. Is that like an old kitchen sponge? jk, of course. “I don’t stare anymore.” *hilarious* I can see that though. I’ve read enough of your “morning mail” that it makes sense.
I’m on the flip side of the equation, kind of. I’m insightful, but people don’t see it. They’re usually too busy trying to figure out what’s up with me, lost in their own thoughts and perceptions. Since I’m quiet and I’ve perfected the “air” of protection that I talk about in my first blog it keeps some people at bay. But, once they see me having friendly conversation it’s like all bets are off, guards drop and I tend to learn more than I wanted to know… lol. Interestingly enough, if I peeped them out beforehand my perception of them is pretty accurate. Unfortunately, I’m bend easier with my judgments though. I should stick with my first impressions.