Tag Archives: Self discovery

How do you think? And what do they mean?

Melanie Richardson 120 model writer actress primarythoughts.netThe one thing that’s been on my mind since my last post for the safe asphyxiation series has been the paragraph about one of the statements from my dreaded list.

“I wish people would see me as…

My first thoughts: “What do I care? I don’t wish people would see me as anything. Maybe I can just skip to the next one because I really don’t care.” Then I thought, “No, there must be a reason. Let me be open to this list I’ve subjected myself to.” I asked myself, “Why do I not care?” Then the statement became easy. On a side note, I told you it’s easier for me to pick out my dislikes first! Paragraph #4, see do I know me or what? Man, but negative thought before positive choice is messed up. I’ve got to change that.” Continue reading

block circles

block circles by Conscious Melanie Richardson primarythoughts.net model writer actormajor interest in relaying texture through photo.
i love black and white images…
a little humor in title.
i used to go out every morning and shoot in the same area looking for something new in the same old things…”

Those words are straight from the description that the artist Conscious listed with the photo. For those of you who have read my safe asphyxiation series (and some of my writings regarding my background), you probably can imagine how powerful the image and words came across to me as I took them in. I could honestly stop right here and be done. Continue reading

Digging Up the Past

shoveling dirt Melanie Richardson primarythoughts.net model actress writerI’m not sure what I want to call these posts. It seems like they should have a name. You know we humans love to label things. I think I found myself at this point (the point yet to be named) when I came across the email from 2007 from my daddy. You know the one about Garbage Trucks. Then, I’ve been going through paperwork lately and came across some of my old writings. I think I shared some of that on facebook and twitter. And then… even though I thoroughly enjoy relationship conversations I don’t always like giving direct advice. Especially, when I know both parties (the man and the woman), so I usually try to give them other resources… books, counselors, etc. which I’ve been doing a lot of recently. So, I’ve pulled out some old books and such. I guess I’ve dug up some of the past and started assessing where I am today. Continue reading